shades of perspective
May 30th, 2008 — separation
because… its still true.
habits. we all have them. some good for us, some bad. either way, they become part of us. who we are, how we identify ourselves. how we distinguish our selves from others, part of the pieces that make us up.
the process of letting go of a habit, or breaking that habit, is interesting, and difficult. Continue reading →
May 28th, 2008 — veterans of the game
so, here i am…finally. it took approximately 10 days in my new city to get undiscombobulated but i’m back and ready to go.
this weekend i met some great new friends. which of course inspired some relational conversation while drinking adult beverages in the company of others at a nice little spot in hayes valley.
May 19th, 2008 — separation
so. california. ive traveled a crooked route to get to this crooked street city. but here i am.
and though im blogging, and usually good at this, ive been so discombobulated lately that its hard to even begin explaining my thoughts, fears, hopes or dreams.
so as of now… here are my thoughts in someone elses brilliantly written words…
well there are times when you know when you should stay, when you should go
but you don’t. rehearse the lines in your head, you know what needs to be said. but it all comes out bad. and if it’s space that you need, if time is falling at your feet walking away empty. love is a crazy dream… is it what you want, is it what you need.
we go back and forth, making war out of peace.
and you won’t let go, and I won’t give up. we go round and round but is it ever enough, is it ever enough.
lately I’m falling away, growing more quiet by the day. not really sure why I even feel this way. I guess I got a little scared someone could actually care. this time, just might be something there. and if it’s change that you need, a little more mystery, some kind of deeper meaning…love is a crazy dream. is it what you want is it what you need we go back and forth making war out of peace. and you won’t let go and I won’t give up we go round and round but is it ever enough is it ever enough
I’m sure I’ll mess it all up I’m sure I’ll try to convince myself that I just need to be. but what I want to be is something else, someone else. so why did we cross the line, mess it all up with time and in the end just assume it’ll be alright?
