most nights are crystal clear, but tonight it’s like you’re stuck between stations…on the radio.
i think i need to keep this short. i’m in a flurry of thoughts and not feeling able to super process.
mostly, right now the ’embracing feelings, not managing them’ thing is making me feel sad and in no control and empty in my heart. it will pass. i’m sure.
i’m listening to my astrology reading from last month to give a little guidance and this is what my astrologer said, “right now, how you feel is who you are. it’s not that you’re really moody right now. but your moods are controlling your outlook.”
when he said this 6 weeks ago it meant nothing. now i hear it. and he just said, “you’re kind of waking up emotionally right now.”
i think that’s it for now. trying to process. i’ll trying some libations, a birthday party, and the musical stylings of the ghost and the city at bottom of the hill. after all, it is friday night.
you’re pretty good with words…but words won’t save your life.